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i spy. it's so much more fun from this safe distance. the things i built up are tearing me down. i keep promising it will be different. i need some more amusing hobbies.

i've been feeling a little under the weather - my muscles just a little achey, my throat just a little sore. i looked in the mirror this morning at the back of my throat and man, it's really gross. i hopped on a subway to a walk-in clinic, and the doctor tested for strep and mono. it looks like i have mono. i find out on tuesday.

i'm not getting as much sympathy as i want, because i feel fine.

(hey you - why does everything have to be such a big deal? i want to make each other laugh. maybe i just want someone else. we've grown apart. silly boy. grumpy boy. green-eyed boy. is this worth it?)