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things are looking up.

joel made origami and left it in my room. when i unfolded the crane it said:

carolyn
i don't want you to apologize because i'm afraid i'll accept it. i don't want to justify my actions, but i'm afraid that i will. i owe you an apology. i'm sorry.
-joel

it's not really anything he hasn't said before, but i like it. he's right, of coarse. even if he's wrong, that makes him right. we played boggle on his computer today. if we could get to a place where we were really just friendly roommates, that would be awesome, and i feel like we're getting there. the air's not so thick anymore.

i poured myself into a project until four in the morning yesterday and i'm still exhausted. i expect -- a b?